Essentially the book is about four girls becoming women and, though I am already a grown woman, I found inspiration in their quest to always do better. That is what I am trying to do in my life, do better, be better.
About a month ago I quit university, I was studying history, I realized it was not right for me and I quit. I don't like quitting and I will go a long way not to have to admit defeat. I will put up with terrible conditions or results and promise myself it will get better in the long run, just to not have to give up, I am stubborn and silly, and I should have quit a year ago.
Now I have quit and am among the scores of unemployed, I write applications and show up to when I have to, but the only valuable thing it has brought me, is a sense of having something that needs doing.
I talked to a guidance counselor who pointed me in the direction of an education that might be right for me, I have applied for it and there is a pretty good chance I will get in.
I went to a job interview yesterday and again today.
All in all; stuff gets done, which is more than can be said for the past year.
The stagnation has ended and I feel like I have awoken from a deep sleep and am ready to run a marathon.
What really helps is, I have decided two things:
- I don't care.
- I can do anything.
So whenever something gets in my way I just remember I don't care enough for it to bother me, and if I want, I can fix it, because I can do anything.
My doctor said, when I told her about this great sense of "nothing is impossible", that I had probably been depressed. I don't know if that is true, I don't really care either.
All I know is that the world might be a tough place sometimes, but I am always tougher and whenever the world wants to prove me wrong, she can bring it on and I'll even drive her to the ER afterwards.
So remember, if the world seems out to get you, kick her ass!
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